He's First. Every Single Day.

How serious are you about your relationship with Jesus? Really — how committed to his truths, his words, his promises? Are you a go-to-church-on-Sunday, hands-in-the-air, glad-to-be-here worshiper? What does your life and relationship with him look like the other 6 days?

I fall so short of what I need to be and do and act and think all 7 days of the week. I will not pretend that this is not the truth. I can’t — he demands honesty from me, accountability for actions and words and thoughts — and I am a failure in all of that. My constant “sorry” is not okay. My actions are all that matter. My love for HIM shows in what I do, how I change, how obedient I am. My daily walk with him is ALL that matters. I am fully his or not at all.

Yes, I am sure that we can know his love is constant, unconditional, and that forgiveness is his gift. It is not a free pass on our behavior, our walk, our justification for our weaknesses. I will not settle for less than my utmost love and devotion for his saving grace, his love, his mercy, his relationship. He deserves more than I am capable of — but he gets all that I am. He is first.

John 13–14

“If you really love me, you will keep my commandments.” Every single day. Not just Sunday.

Verses 16–31 touch my deepest places. My spirit leans into these verses. It is as though the love of my life is explaining to me the things that have to be — and yet he is doing everything he can to reassure me, comfort me, knowing that I don’t understand. I can almost hear the hurt and sorrow for their coming hurt and sorrow.

He’s coming back. He promised. It’s the wait that’s hard.

My prayer for all of us is that we truly know him as the Son of God. That we keep him in his place of honor. That we worship him in truth and word and deed every single moment of every single day.

Love, Pam